That awkward moment…

This is why people wear a mask

It’s like every time I bare my heart and show the slightest hint of vulnerability, I get cast aside…forgotten.

No more next time. No more wearing my heart on sleeve. No more opening up to people I think who care.

Yup, okay…

Life’s what ifs

Have you ever wondered about life what ifs?

I do that all the time. Pondering about the possibilities and what could have been if only time and other factors were on our side.

Sigh…

“ You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. ”

— Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy

rightside up or upside down

It’s such a scary world out there with 2 faced people. Their words seem harmless and you could almost feel the sincerity in their hearts (or so, I thought) but alas, it is all just a facade.

I wonder how are they like to their children and if their children are like them? It scares me to think. There is much of the world I have yet to see.

Is there an honest soul left in this world? And what would that look like, anyway? I’m not sure that we would recognise it.

Internship

It’s been a while since I last blogged. It’s a whole new world year and I can’t believe I’m into my 18th week of internship!

I still remember those worries I had. What if the people aren’t nice? What if there are too much work for me to handle? What if I have to lunch alone? What if I dread going to work and have to drag myself instead of enjoying my 24 weeks there? What if I don’t learn anything useful?

Most of the time my worries are really unnecessary. This time was no different. :)

You are good, ALL THE TIME

The good I did not do, You did.

The good I did not deserve, You gave.

Wrong things, Wrong places

searching and searching
not recognizing the face staring back at me

it pains Jesus as much as it pains me.

Bring me back

In pastures green, You lead me down to lie
By waters still, I shall abide.
I shall not look to my own strength
Into Your hands, I place my hopes and plans
My trust is in the blood of the Lamb

Final exams in my poly life tomorrow! Always so panicky and stressed up a day before the start of exam week that I find myself tearing up over the slightest stuff. Bad…

I think mom sensed my anxiousness because she later came to pray for me along with dad!! What a pleasant surprise!!! Dad’s prayer wasn’t long and structured with flowery Christian-like words but God still hears them. :) Prayers don’t have to be long and peppered with good vocabulary… God hears simple, honest, heartfelt prayers too. Thank Him for that! Because I often run out of things to say…like now. Ha. Okay, bye!

* performed an acapella song item for WRPF’s 39th anniversary. Though the ending was messy and funny but still thank God for His faithfulness! We did well enough with the few practices, imagine how much better we could be if we practice more. All in all, it was an enjoyable experience- reliving a little of my Choir days ;)

Always love doing personality quizzes, so here’s one which is describes me to a certain extent.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t
really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do
is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t
succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard
to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of
different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

 

- do yours here! http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Alright, back to studying. Final paper of UT2 before I breathe another sigh of relief! And found out yesterday that I was one of the top 2 in class for TTM paper- the one I did badly in test 1. Came as a surprise…so I know it’s not by my own effort. THANK YOU GOD!! :)